For the most part, ever since I started blogging I've been an open book. I don't often candy-coat or filter what I post on these pages, I am who I am, my life is my life, and my family is my family. I don't measure any of it up to anyone else's standards. I'm a real person and it's important to me that everyone know that I live a real life, not some illusion where my life seems more perfect than it actually is. A perfect life is a boring life.
Mine has been far from boring.
I've been challenged to share my story. The series that we're covering at church right now is called "This is My Story" and in it, we're studying others in scripture who have shared their story of how Christ changed their lives. In this series we're being challenged to share our story and how Christ has worked in and changed our lives.
This presents a couple of problems for me.
There's not just one story where Christ has worked in or changed my life. His fingerprints are on my whole life. I was raised in a Christian home, so the path that lead me to The Lord began long before my own life began.
I'm not really a narrow-it-down kind of girl. If I'm going to tell a story, I'm going to tell the whole story. Which is why my original Life Story (Learning to Live With Me) was 15 pages long and more than 7,500 words. If you read that blog before, pretend you haven't because there's probably going to be a bit of plagiarism going on in some parts of this. (Hey, it's my work, I can steal it if I want to!)
I've not really 'put myself out there' in a big way in the past five years. And while I've never written about it directly, I know that in order to accurately tell parts of my life story, at some point I will need to include details about this. Like it or not—it's now a part of my story. It will just take a great deal of thought and prayer to be able to put the old hurt into words that don't cause new hurt.
My intention is to post 'chapters' of My Story, likely out of order, as I feel lead to. The first one I have felt compelled to write is a very painful story for me. Which is part of why I keep putting it off, that post will be authored with many tears. But I know that God uses the darkness in our lives to illuminate the bright. And that's why I'll be sharing that story soon.